It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The time has now talk of many things's too bad I can't find the words.

It was a productive day overall. I got my laundry done, and went up the street to run errends. I got some good activity in, too. I was out of mushrooms, so I stopped in to the grocery nearby to see if they had any. There has been a sign up saying it is under new management, and when I was there last week to buy croutons because I was out, I noticed the produce section was shockingly stocked and nice-looking. The place has been crap for so long now that I figured it must be a mistake somehow, and I left. But here it is a week later, and the shelves were STILL shockingly stocked and nice-looking. It looks like I'll be able to do some shopping there again, which would be a huge relief. I desperately need to be able to buy freggies close by and not have to depend on someone to drive me, or on having to walk 45 min both ways in the snow and ice everywhere this winter. I pay more there, but the convenience is probably worth it. It would be so good to be able to just walk there and get something when I run out. I need my fresh freggies!

I took more progress pics today. I think I would have forgotten I'd planned to do it only for I re-read last night's post and was reminded. I think I might have seen a little tiny difference from last month's pics even, which would be the first time I'd seen a difference from one month to the next. The difference from the first ones is satisfying. I spend a lot of time, particularly when exercising, thinking about reaching goal, and seeing my family this summer. Last night I dreamed I suddenly found myself home, I went home for some important unknown reason, and all I could think was how it was too soon and how I've been so wanting to surprise them. I was also hoping they wouldn't notice I'm different. I've had similar dreams a few times, it really emphasises to me how important it is to me to surprise them. It is such a huge motivator for me, and it makes me feel so good to think about it. I know they are going to be so happy, and I love knowing that something I've been working so hard at is going to make them so happy for me. Most of the women on the boards have friends and family around them while they're losing weight, but I've been mostly alone. I don't have a husband and kids, my family aren't around me. My life has gotten very solitary. I'm very aware lately of the quiet in my life.

Earned 7 APs today: 20 min brisk walking, 30 min walk aerobics (2-mile), 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 45 min shoulders

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