It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Take me where I cannot stand

I ache in a few places I never knew I had, which is amusing. I can't make my mind up whether it is my hips or perhaps my obliques that are bothering my sides, right where my hands rest when I stand with hands on hips. I'm aware I have abs, and how much I use them without normally realising. My thighs gripe at me constantly whenever getting down or up or moving to and fro. And yet I can move, so I deem yesterday a success. I was thinking I would get on the elliptical on the days I'm not working my core, but the soreness of my thighs today told me that elliptical should be done on the same day I do the lunges, so that was out today. I'm not committing myself to anything specific tomorrow, I'll wait and see if I'm capable of doing a repeat of yesterday. I groan when I think of working my abs, but I'll have a night of sleep and tomorrow morning to recuperate, so who knows. If I'm still too achey then I will wait till the weekend and just start off two alternating days a week instead of three. I managed 10 girly pushups today and while that might not seem like a lot to most, I was still rather elated; I've never been able to manage more than a couple. I also did 10 triangle pushups which was just as exciting, on the heels of the other. I also tried out an idea I had to compensate for not having a weight bench, and was able to do free weights to work my pecs, which is awesome. Again I'm looking forward to tomorrow and the promise of more activity, in whatever form. I climbed on the scale this morning and it is showing me down, and that made me happy at first, then I wondered if that was a bad thing...does that mean I am getting caught up in the number? But then I realised that it doesn't matter if I get happy to see the scale down, what matters is how I handle the STSs and the gains. I gave myself permission to be happy to be down, because I do not let it affect me when it is doing something else. I also gave myself permission to be happy because I did not have to fool myself to see that number; I saw it without shifting meal times and trying to bring it about. It was simply there. And if it hadn't been, I would have went about my day in the exact same way. I can't pretend I am not trying to lose weight, and I can't pretend not to care about the number on the scale and want it to go down, but being happy about a number and letting myself become obsessed with it are two different things, and I am winning that battle.

Earned 6 APs today: 20 min brisk walking, 30 min walk aerobics (2-mile), 40 min upper body

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