It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Sunday, March 30, 2008

A new look

I decided I wanted a different look for my blog. I liked the old one, but it was better suited to a more personal blog, and I plan to use the template to make one. For this blog however, I wanted something to reflect how I feel about my weight loss efforts. The background I chose is actually called "Motion", which I thought to be an interesting coincidence.

I had a good day, I woke up early, relaxed and caught up on things on the comp, had a great breakfast, did dishes, laundry and then exercised. I'm just doing my weekly Sunday evening routine now before I make supper and retire for the night. My workout was very good, I was able to notice that I am getting stronger, or at least that it is still getting easier to complete. I've not had a sore arse since that time the week before, but I'm still trusting that what I'm doing is having its effects and I'm just continuing on with it. F visited yesterday, we had a staff meeting in the morning and she gave me a ride home then hung out here till she had to work later in the afternoon. There was coffee and doughnuts as usual at the meeting, and as always I wanted to eat yummy doughnuts, and as always I resisted. Even when a coworker tried to convince me to have some, meaning well. F's visit was satisfying on various levels. First of all, the fact that I've been keeping up with my housework meant that it wasn't a problem to have a visitor on no notice. I also made my usual breakfast and ate it without feeling self conscious. I thought she would say that it was rather a lot of food for a sitting, but she argued that she didn't think it was, really. We had a wonderful long chat about this and that, and as always she was always avidly interested in my weight loss and hearing all about the nit pickies and anything noteworthy, and anything not, at that. She has always been so supportive of my efforts, albeit protective and cautious at times, but it's only because she cares and worries sometimes that I might go overboard with things. She said that seeing me at home in my own clothes makes her really realise that my body is now "permanently fundamently different", to use her words. I didn't get her at first, but she finally made me understand that since she usually sees me at work in my uniform, it is harder to see how a person is changing when you see them in their uniform, because the non-changing clothes can mask the changes that are actually there. I'd never thought of it before, but it made a lot of sense to me once I understood what she meant. We also chatted about other things, and for once I was in an open mood, and it was lovely to spend some quality time, we don't get to do that very often any more. We'll have to make more of a point, now that she will be moving. We talked for a bit on the phone this evening, but I was in the middle of exercising so I didn't talk long. She asked me out to our fav restuarant in the city, and I was sorely tempted because the food is so delicious, but I needed to finish exercising, and I don't have any money to eat out anyway, so it wasn't as hard to say no as it might have been. But from then on I was distracted by wanting food from the Mongolian Grill. Which reminds me, yesterday I had the most powerful craving for cheese...real cheese. I came damn close to buying some when I went to the grocery, but I knew that it is costly, pointswise, and I wanted to eat a lot more than I could allot, and with the cost of it, I decided to forego it completely. I'm not often had such strong cravings for food since I've started WW, but that one was as strong as anything could be. I'm feeling it again now to an extent, just thinking about it. I would love to have some cheese and Vienna Sausages on Ritz crackers right now, like I would have back home in the middle of the night for a snack. Even tho cravings are not neessarily happy things, I'm still sitting here smiling a little remembering doing that. Anyhoo, time for me to get sorted; I'm showered and well worked, but I still need to eat. I feel good and strong, I put some extra into it just because I felt motivated and good about what I was doing. I love having my mojo on, I hope the hormones don't get me this month like they did last month, I hate losing it! I also had some extra motivation from weighing this morning and seeing the scale way down from my official WI from Friday. I am interested to see whether it sticks for this week, if it does I will be happy.

Earned 11 APs today: 30 min walk aerobics (2-mile), 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 50 min shoulders, 35 min biceps/triceps, 15 min chest

Weekly summary:
Earned 32 APs
8.1 hours (485 min) total activity
4.5 miles (7.2 kms) walked
28 FPs remaining
3.0 lbs gained
Current weight: 209.2

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