Someday I'll learn to love these scars

It doesn't look like I'll be finishing with an OP day today. I had a very late supper and because I hate a very late breakfast and didn't have dinner I had an extra large supper meal and now I'm really full and I don't want to eat my dessert which is also my second dairy for the day. I would drink some milk instead, but I only have enough for my cereal in the morning, I'll have to get milk on the way home from work tomorrow night. I missed my dairy last night too because I didn't have time to get it in before a friend picked me up when I was finishing my supper. I feel a little guilty, but everything else was fine food wise, and I did another full day today so I got lots of activity. My left arm is bothering me tonight, I think I strained it a little while doing free weights, I think I got a little sloppy with that arm when doing my chest because I was distracted by the movie I had playing while I exercised. I usually try really hard to keep a proper form, but I'll have to remind myself to be even more careful. I read an article tonight about overtraining and I will be keeping alert for any warning signs, but right now I'm not exeriencing any. I can feel myself getting stronger, the exercises are becoming less difficult. I also fancied I could see a difference in my backside while looking in the mirror today. It was probably my imagination, but I almost dare to think it wasn't. While doing the butt workout I noticed that my flab there high on my backside/low on my back was creasing when I was doing the donkey kicks, and I've never had that sensation before. I know it sounds awful, but there it is. That wasn't as bad as noticing that my stomach flab has gotten even slacker, and while doing certain exercises on my hands and knees, not only do I have a crease going round at my middle, I'm now getting a crease top to bottom when I suck in and/or tighten my abs. Definitely NOT a pretty sight...I had the sudden thought that I must resemble a cow and haven't been able to shake the thought since. Funny how I've lost 80 pounds and have only managed to look MORE like a cow. Still glum over the state of my poor body, and still confident in knowing that it will never deter me one iota from my goals. I can't control my skin or the sag, and I can't control the number I will see on the scale tomorrow. But I do know that when I was showering tonight after my long workout, I felt so good physically, and mentally I was elated at knowing I am getting stronger. I haven't been able to stop flexing my biceps all week, I've gotten some great definition there after my efforts this month, and everytime I look at it I'm thrilled and motivated. My thighs aren't hurting like they had been in previous weeks either, and you can feel the muscle there. I'm excited to see what another month like this one will do!

Earned 11 Aps today: 30 min walk aerobics (2-mile), 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 50 min shoulders, 35 min biceps/triceps, 15 min chest