It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Someday I'll learn to love these scars

It doesn't look like I'll be finishing with an OP day today. I had a very late supper and because I hate a very late breakfast and didn't have dinner I had an extra large supper meal and now I'm really full and I don't want to eat my dessert which is also my second dairy for the day. I would drink some milk instead, but I only have enough for my cereal in the morning, I'll have to get milk on the way home from work tomorrow night. I missed my dairy last night too because I didn't have time to get it in before a friend picked me up when I was finishing my supper. I feel a little guilty, but everything else was fine food wise, and I did another full day today so I got lots of activity. My left arm is bothering me tonight, I think I strained it a little while doing free weights, I think I got a little sloppy with that arm when doing my chest because I was distracted by the movie I had playing while I exercised. I usually try really hard to keep a proper form, but I'll have to remind myself to be even more careful. I read an article tonight about overtraining and I will be keeping alert for any warning signs, but right now I'm not exeriencing any. I can feel myself getting stronger, the exercises are becoming less difficult. I also fancied I could see a difference in my backside while looking in the mirror today. It was probably my imagination, but I almost dare to think it wasn't. While doing the butt workout I noticed that my flab there high on my backside/low on my back was creasing when I was doing the donkey kicks, and I've never had that sensation before. I know it sounds awful, but there it is. That wasn't as bad as noticing that my stomach flab has gotten even slacker, and while doing certain exercises on my hands and knees, not only do I have a crease going round at my middle, I'm now getting a crease top to bottom when I suck in and/or tighten my abs. Definitely NOT a pretty sight...I had the sudden thought that I must resemble a cow and haven't been able to shake the thought since. Funny how I've lost 80 pounds and have only managed to look MORE like a cow. Still glum over the state of my poor body, and still confident in knowing that it will never deter me one iota from my goals. I can't control my skin or the sag, and I can't control the number I will see on the scale tomorrow. But I do know that when I was showering tonight after my long workout, I felt so good physically, and mentally I was elated at knowing I am getting stronger. I haven't been able to stop flexing my biceps all week, I've gotten some great definition there after my efforts this month, and everytime I look at it I'm thrilled and motivated. My thighs aren't hurting like they had been in previous weeks either, and you can feel the muscle there. I'm excited to see what another month like this one will do!

Earned 11 Aps today: 30 min walk aerobics (2-mile), 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 50 min shoulders, 35 min biceps/triceps, 15 min chest

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