It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Saturday, March 15, 2008

One month

Wow, this week turned out to be such a bust, I can't believe I only have 9 APs so far. The good news is that I went through today feeling better emotionally than I had been after having that issue sorted out last night, and my period started at work this evening which has probably also contributed to my improved mood and state of mind. My periods have been short in the last few months, so I'm hoping that next week I will be back on track and motivated and energetic again. I've been perfectly OP, and have been eating extremely well, but it's the exercise that has eluded me this week. I worked a lot of inconveniently-timed shifts, and that didn't help either. On Friday morning I had to get up early for work, after having had a very late supper the night before because I'd worked late. I was a tiny bit tempted to wait and WI today, because I knew the late meal would hide my real weight, but I'm determined to keep to the schedule and to not fall into that way of thinking again. So I hopped on the scale and saw it tell me a gain from last week, and I hopped back off and got ready for work. I'm proud of that, but the thing is that I'm not used to weighing then getting ready for work directly afterward, and I forgot to go online and track my weight. I remembered that this morning, but before I went online I weighed myself and saw it tell me I'm down almost 3 pounds from last week. I debated for quite a while, then went online and tracked the number I saw yesterday, because if I hadn't forgot to track it, that would have been the number I would have recorded, and seeing a lower one today wouldn't have changed it. I don't want to create the temptation to WI on Friday, then wait and see what Saturday's number is before I officially track. BUT, it occurred to me later that being that strict might be doing myself a disservice, because eating to a higher weight can mean eating more points, which is probably the case this week. So I've decided to go back and change the number I recorded to the one I saw for today, and I will see tomorrow night when I retake the points quiz whether I will be dropping down another DP, which I expect I will. If I do drop, that will mean that by eating my DPs I would have eaten 7 extra points this upcoming week, which is actually a lot. I've been trying to leave a certain amount of FPs unused each week now since I'm working less, to account for working part time hours at an active job, and I don't want to be wondering whether I should have left enough to account for the 7 I might have used up thinking I had enough DPs to cover it. I think I showed myself that I am serious about not playing games with the scale, but it would be just another type of game if I became strict to the point that I just sabatoged myself for no good reason. WW is a balancing game in so many ways; you can't play it too conservative because you can mess things up, but being too lax will mess it up too. Let me tell you, nothing is ever easy!

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