One month

Wow, this week turned out to be such a bust, I can't believe I only have 9 APs so far. The good news is that I went through today feeling better emotionally than I had been after having that issue sorted out last night, and my period started at work this evening which has probably also contributed to my improved mood and state of mind. My periods have been short in the last few months, so I'm hoping that next week I will be back on track and motivated and energetic again. I've been perfectly OP, and have been eating extremely well, but it's the exercise that has eluded me this week. I worked a lot of inconveniently-timed shifts, and that didn't help either. On Friday morning I had to get up early for work, after having had a very late supper the night before because I'd worked late. I was a tiny bit tempted to wait and WI today, because I knew the late meal would hide my real weight, but I'm determined to keep to the schedule and to not fall into that way of thinking again. So I hopped on the scale and saw it tell me a gain from last week, and I hopped back off and got ready for work. I'm proud of that, but the thing is that I'm not used to weighing then getting ready for work directly afterward, and I forgot to go online and track my weight. I remembered that this morning, but before I went online I weighed myself and saw it tell me I'm down almost 3 pounds from last week. I debated for quite a while, then went online and tracked the number I saw yesterday, because if I hadn't forgot to track it, that would have been the number I would have recorded, and seeing a lower one today wouldn't have changed it. I don't want to create the temptation to WI on Friday, then wait and see what Saturday's number is before I officially track. BUT, it occurred to me later that being that strict might be doing myself a disservice, because eating to a higher weight can mean eating more points, which is probably the case this week. So I've decided to go back and change the number I recorded to the one I saw for today, and I will see tomorrow night when I retake the points quiz whether I will be dropping down another DP, which I expect I will. If I do drop, that will mean that by eating my DPs I would have eaten 7 extra points this upcoming week, which is actually a lot. I've been trying to leave a certain amount of FPs unused each week now since I'm working less, to account for working part time hours at an active job, and I don't want to be wondering whether I should have left enough to account for the 7 I might have used up thinking I had enough DPs to cover it. I think I showed myself that I am serious about not playing games with the scale, but it would be just another type of game if I became strict to the point that I just sabatoged myself for no good reason. WW is a balancing game in so many ways; you can't play it too conservative because you can mess things up, but being too lax will mess it up too. Let me tell you, nothing is ever easy!