It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Monday, March 10, 2008

I seemed to have misplaced an X

Today wasn't the greatest, physical-wise. I was shakey and just felt off for most of the morning, which was the price I paid for my lack of discipline yesterday. I could have forced myself to eat supper, but by the time I got around to it, I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. I woke up hungry tho, and I didn't feel very strong today. Everything has a price. I just finished my supper, and if I had more food I would eat it, but I know I just need to let my body sort out what it has, and the hungry feeling will pass. The funny this is that I gypped myself out of my FPs for last week when I goofed off yesterday; my points reset Monday and the FPs I'd been saving for yesterday are gone forever. Oh well, I'll save them again and this Sunday I will try harder to be disciplined. I weighed this morning and the scale is showing me as down over 8 lbs from 8 days ago. I guess there had been a lot of bloating/retaining going on. Of course, the number will be suspect because I didn't have a supper meal yesterday. Still, I fancy I can see a difference in the mirror lately. I've said more than once that now that I'm getting closer to goal that the losses are going to show up more dramatically, and yet it's still surprising to suddenly be feeling like I am changing a lot more quickly. I discussed it with F at work today and she said I could probably fit into an L workshirt, so before I left I managed to dig the last one out of the bin and brought it home with me. I tried it on as soon as I got home and was absolutely thrilled to death to see that I'll be able to wear it just fine, and that it looks good on me. I'm excited to wear it on my next shift, I bet someone will comment, because the XL shirt I've been wearing has gotten pretty baggy and has hidden my real shape to an extent. Unfortunately I think it makes me boobs look smaller, but I don't mind as long as the rest of me looks smaller too. I feel a little surreal tonight because I'm trying to absorb the reality that my body truly is different. I'll probably take progress pics tomorrow, I'm looking forward to seeing whether I can notice a difference from last month's pics.

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