It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

When it's killing me what do I really need

Today got all turned about. I was supposed to go into work in the early afternoon for training, and I'd planned to come home and do my exercise in the evening. Instead I got asked to work so I had to rush to try and get as much of it in before I left, and I didn't get home until late. I had to leave out the WATP, but I did finish up the free weights when I got home. I would have liked to do the DVD tonight to make up for not getting it in this afternoon but I was hungry and didn't want to put off supper. With my APs I had enough to eat more food for supper but in the end I decided to eat the usual and just garnish it a little more richly. I really would like to shrink my stomach some if at all possible so that I don't have to eat so much to feel full. I suppose that comes through time and cutting back by degrees so I won't feel deprived by sudden changes. All my life I've eaten a lot of food and I don't feel satisfied without at least a comfortably full stomach. That probably came in part from eating crap that didn't take care of hunger the way proper food does, so I was driven to eat more of it. But I also can't ignore the huge role comfort plays in my overeating, and how I find the sensation of being full to be physically and emotionally satisfying. Even now when I save my FPs for the weekend for when I want a treat, it is not to eat food that are higher points, it is to eat MORE food. The interesting thing is that I've not had to put much thought into the how and why of it all, because since WW cuts your points bit by bit as you go along, by default you start eating a bit less than you used to, unless you just start eating a lot more 0 point food. I have learned to make smarter choices, but I am also eating less food as well. Because of that I will trust that I don't need to fret about this and that I will continue moving toward a place where I am eating less and feeling satisfied without having to be full to the brim.

Earned 9 APs today: 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 50 min shoulders, 35 min biceps/triceps, 15 min chest

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