It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Friday, April 11, 2008

My problems stop at my finger-picking

4 weeks, 2 days till Nightwish!
-OP: yes
-activity: yes

I think this might be the first time I've made a post on this journal here at school. I'm here with F keeping her company while she does some work. I needed to make a trip to the grocery so I called her today to see if she was going to be on this end of town and since she had to come in to the U she fetched me and brought me to do my shopping beforehand. I was suddenly low on or out of things that are heavy and too cumbersome to carry on foot. It's so depressing how much money I have to spend on food, I feel like I'm constantly having to buy more, like nothing lasts any amount of time. Maybe I just can't get past the mindset that I should only be spending 50 dollars a week on food. I should try to find some spare time and take a look at my receipts and try to figure out what the cost of what I am eating per week would amount to, perhaps it would cheer me up if it is less than what it seems like I am spending. I did pick up a spegetti squash today, I've never heard of it before this week, but I would like to try it and see how that goes. I'm very interested in finding cheaper foods and/or food that will go farther. I also wanted a zuchini, but they were out. I don't know if those types of veggies are cheaper year round, or if they are just cheaper in the winter, but I want to learn. I spend part of my days off browsing websites and blogs that have to do with weightloss, exercise and healthy eating, it's usually what I do in the morning while I wake up before breakfast. I found a good one last week with simple recipes that I would like to try. I keep seeking out information on these things because I want to know as much as I can so I can apply it. There's so much info out there, and I've found a lot of stuff I find useful. I don't always agree with what I read, but I sift through what I find and pick and choose what I think I can use and what makes sense to me. I was on a particular health blog today and the fellow believes that grains are bad and should be cut out of your diet. He has a lot of good info, but I don't agree with cutting out the grains, no matter how many studies he cites to support the idea. I suppose it could be true, but I'm not interested in cutting grain out of my diet. The times when I make decisions like that are oddly satisfying to me; it almost seems like some sort of affirmation that I am not getting fanatical or weird about my healthy lifestyle. I'm interested in making improvements to what I am doing, but I still have my limits. I've become more concerned about getting protein in, and with my sodium intake. I'm also becoming concerned with form while I exercise...I spend so much time at it, I really don't want to be wasting my time on exercise if it is not going to do much for me. I want to maximise the benefit I am getting from my meals and my activity. I find it all encouraging; I'm still in this nice place between stressing over being perfect and losing interest/becoming bored with it all. I do sometimes wonder whether I will reach a point where I will lose interest in being healthy, when I've 'learned all there is to know', so to speak. I like feeling like I can still learn things and make changes to my living, most of all probably because I am already living pretty damn healthy and I'm just fine-tuning at this point. It's nice not feeling like I have to make such huge changes to my life in order to get where I would like to be.

Earned 11 APs today: 30 min walk aerobics, 20 min core, 15 min lower body, 50 min shoulders, 35 min biceps/triceps, 15 min chest

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