The incredible shrinking woman!: I feel so cold inside..sorrow has frozen my mind

It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was experiencing...so many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Monday, April 7, 2008

I feel so cold inside..sorrow has frozen my mind

4 weeks, 6 days till Nightwish!
-OP: yes
-activity: yes

It was an uneventful day. I woke up at 5am for some reason and had trouble getting back to sleep. Thankfully I managed it, but I kept waking up every 5-10 min thereafter. I'm just glad I was able to get back to sleep each time, it's usually all but impossible for me in those situations. I was scheduled a shorter day today to make up for having to be scheduled an extra shift this week, so I didn't have to start till 8am, and I finished at 2pm, which meant the day went very quickly, and I was able to go for a river walk when I got home. I have no problem walking in the winter, as cold outside never bothered me before, but this winter there was constantly snow and ice on the ground, so I didn't get to go for walks. Last fall I did a lot of walking all bundled up, but this winter it hasn't been an option. Winter lingered and lingered this year, and now suddenly it is over and done with and the warmer weather seems to have set in. I went for one walk recently all bundled up with long johns and scarf and gloves and winter coat, then the next time I went without the scarf and gloves, the next without the fleece, the next just with the fleece, and today I didn't wear anything over my shirt. All this in the span of 2 weeks! I only hope we don't keep transitioning just as quickly into hot and humid; my tolerance for heat may have improved some, but I doubt I will ever find the summers here easy or comfortable by a longshot.

Note to self, take progress pics tomorrow

Earned 6 APs today: 85 min brisk walking