For a memory of one kind word

1 week, 4 days till Nightwish!
-OP: yes
-activity: yes

I didn't do my workout today, although I had planned to, but it is okay because I can do it tomorrow instead. Since I'm not working on Friday, I wouldn't be able to do it Friday anyway, I'll have to fit it in Saturday between the morning staff meeting and my evening shift. I'm not beating myself up over not getting in three workouts this week, but I'm still not happy about it either. I've been feeling such an intense sense of urgency lately, I feel like I'm running out of time. I know it's not a race and I've said that often, but suddenly it feels like one. I know this is all tied up with me going home this summer, it looks like I'll be going sometime in July. With May coming on, July suddenly seems to be breathing down my neck. I know I wouldn't be feeling like this if I weren't going home, but I still don't want to start feeling anxious about this. It's just so important to me to get to where I want to be for when I go home. I still have lots to go and I see things slowing down so much that I'm worried I'm not going to be any farther along than I am now. Before when I was losing so consistently it never bothered me because I had faith that by that time I would be at goal, but now things are different. I'll just have to treat it like the Nightwish concert, and concentrate on being OP and getting my activity instead. I imagine by the time the concert happens I could very well know when I'm going home exactly, and I think I will just start another countdown. It will be much better for me to keep focussing on my behaviours and not the scale so much. Nonetheless I have been wondering whether I'm actually at a plateau, and whether I should try something different. A switch to Core might be called for, or perhaps the Wendie plan to mix things up. I'm not sure what I'm at now, I've not weighed since my last WI, on account of late meals and early breakfasts and how those throw off the number anyway. I've just not been in the mood to see the scale up like it's been. I'll be interested in seeing what the scale says this week, I only know that I feel like my clothes are looser this week in particular, and that I'm consistently hungry like I normally never am. I'm trying to listen to my body and give it what it needs; this afternoon I ended up taking a nap instead of exercising, because I was tired. I honestly have no idea what to expect at WI. Last week I showed a gain, but it was also the Week of Big Gain so I was not surprised. When I look at the graph of my WIs, the Week of Big Gain makes the line loop upwards a little, so that the weeks in between look to hang between them...looks rather like a necklace. I hope I don't have trouble getting to sleep tonight after that long nap this afternoon. I did wake up from it and go for a nice river walk tho. I met the nicest gentleman, I passed him walking west very near where I usually turn around and start heading back that way. He was older, and I figured I would be lapping him soon enough, but instead I trailed behind him most of the way back to the bridge. That rarely happens to me, and I was amused and impressed enough that when I finally came abreast of him and he looked over and greeted me I had to tell him that he had led me on a merry chase, and that I'd been trying forever to catch up to him. He laughed and said he bet I don't get many people passing me. We walked together till he came to his turn around, and had a lovely chat. Turns out he has a daughter with my name. I do hope I see him walking again, it's nice to meet a kindred spirit.

Earned 5 APs today: 80 min brisk walking