It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Saturday, April 19, 2008

The red-hot blade of your words

3 weeks, 1 day till Nightwish!
-OP: yes
-activity: yes

I was up too late last night and it resulted in me sleeping in this morning, so I didn't get a river walk in because I had to do laundry before work. I also never got the shopping done, because I had nothing I could wear out because I threw everything I can wear into the wash. My old black comfy pants which I have not worn in a while will do to go down to the laundry, but I had to cinch the drawstrings as tight as I could just to keep them up, and I looked a right state with the crotch of them almost down to my knees. They were never tight on me, but it was a little shocking to see how huge they seem on me now. Maybe they were never tight, but I wore them comfortably all the same, and last year I used to wear them walking. I need to get more comfy pants for walking. I need more clothes, period, with the hot weather coming on. Too bad I can' afford any. I put my work pants in the drier today and they shrunk up a tiny bit and I felt good in them. F told me she can notice I've slimmed down more and asked whether I'm in Onederland yet. There was cake at work for a coworker who's leaving, and I wanted it so badly, I always want sweet stuff like that, and N tried to convince me, but I hold fast, because a mouthful of cake as never been able to satisfy me and I hate being left wanting more and more and more. When it comes to cake I just feel better off abstaining completely. When I get to goal I will be willing to try relaxing my restraint a little bit now and then, but as long as I still want to lose I am determined to maintain my discipline. I had two good moments today; one was when I noticed a person can sit beside me on the bus without me noticing, if I'm not looking in that direction. For so long anyone sitting with me would be squished in there beside me. The other was when I was rubbing the small of my back under my shirt and I was confused by something strange I was feeling, then I realised I could feel the bones of my spine. I've also been noticing recently how I get up and sit down without pushing myself up/supporting myself to lower down by a hand on something. I just sit down and stand up. It's a marvelous feeling!

Earned 2 APs today: 30 min elliptical

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