It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Halfway and 2nd 10%

Yet another No football-Suday, perhaps I am more ill than I realise. The Lions played the same time as my babies, and they were getting killed early on, and I had laundry to do, and things to catch up on, having been gone all weekend, so I gave football a miss this week. If I didn't have to work tomorrow I'd be watching the Sunday night game tho, I think it will be a good one. I was keeping an eye on the NFL site to see the score and my babies managed to scrape a win. Good for them.

The weekend was wonderful. Friday at work was actually pretty awesome, all things considered. It was a system day and I was expecting hell on earth, but at the same time, I didn't have to be there till the store opened, which meant I was spared the usual Friday opening chaos which can often put me in a harried mood. And of course I was very happy that B was getting in town that day, so I was in a great mood regardless of systems. Unexpectedly, everything was organised when I got there, and for once we had a plan that worked splendidly and before we knew it, the rush was over and life was good. I breezed through the rest of the day, and even tho I ended up being there a little later than I had planned, I still got home in a timely enough manner to get sorted out and go to meet B. It was so good to see him, and sure enough the first thing he commented on was to say I looked thinner, which only put me in a better mood. He seemed to find amusement in pointing out where it was easy to feel my bones, and I confess I was very amused by it too. Definitely a good time. I ate what I wanted on Saturday, and had a very sinful omlet for breakfast that had sausage and onion and pepper, and I had toast and homefries. The meal was so good it tasted like the best food I had had in forever. Cheese and butter and grease and sausage, I remember you!!!!! I savoured every bite. I was very full when finished, but not in a sick way. I knew there had to be a tonn of points in it, but I didn't stress about it at all. I'm always so careful, and besides, I need to learn how to splurge now and then. It's what thin people do, they will have fattening meals, just not all the time. Part of changing my lifestyle is to be able to do it sometimes, and be able to go back to eating healthy in between. We had Sarducci's for supper, and again I thought I'd died and gone to heaven. I've not eaten from there since the weekend before I started WW, when I'd gone all out and had everything I knew I would not be eating from now on. I've craved it but have of course never eaten it, so this was a real treat. I'm not worried about how I ate on Saturday because it wasn't giving into an urge or temptation. It was all planned, and had nothing to do with will power or moods. I rarely have company, and I don't feel guilty about any of it. I have nothing but complete confidence that I will have no trouble staying OP after this weekend. I can splurge one day and not be led into a binge or a downward spiral. I can also not exercise for one week and not abandon it compeltely. This week I will make an extra effort to make sure I get exercise in.

I don't remember if I mentioned it here or not, but it had been a goal of mine to reach my 2nd 10% (which is also the halfway-to-goal mark for me) by Christmas, and this week I reached it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was pretty sure it was a goal I could meet, and it helped motivate me some days when I didn't want to exercise, thinking how I would have to keep up my level of effort if I wanted to make that goal by Christmas. The really strange thing is that I did my WI on Friday on account of I wasn't sure if I'd be able to weigh on Saturday morning like I normally do, and I was down...a LOT, considering this is supposed to be my Week of Little Loss. I was expecting little or no loss, seeing where I am in my cycle, and yet by week's end I was noticing that my pants were looser than normal, and just walking quickly makes them try to fall past my hips. I'm used to holding my pants up when I run, but I was just stepping more quickly to cross the road! I don't know if it has to do with TOM not showing up like I had expected (still no sign of him), or the fact that I did not exercise. Maybe my body was thrown off by the fact that this week was so different...I've exercised every week since the third week of August. I know from the WW boards that mixing things up can cause an unexpected loss (case in point: the Wendi Plan), so perhaps it was that. I'm wondering if it is because I ate less this week; since I usually eat most if not all of my APs, I was eating less food this week because I was staying in my DPs only. Thursday night I ended up dipping into my FP a little even tho I had not wanted to, only because I was still hungry after I ate my planned supper meal, but that was the only day I needed more points than my DPs give me. Either way I am not planning to cut out the exercise and see whether it will cause me to lose weight at a faster rate; it is very important to me to have a strong, healthy body, not just a thin one. Besides, I've been losing weight more than fast enough, and as much as I want to be thin as quickly as possible, I know it is better if I don't go any faster than I am. If for nothing else, than because I'm saggy and droppy enough as it is already. Damn skin...I'm wishing I could just say shag it and get a tailor to take it in for me!

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