Not impressed

I had a fit of the sullens yesterday when I did my WI and "only" lost 1 lb instead of 2.2 like I had hoped for so badly. I has planned to exercise before I went to work, but I ended up deciding I wasn't going to. I was actually quite annoyed with exercise, as in my mind I was blaming it for my "bad loss"...as if any loss is bad!!! Either way I got over it, it just took a day of being angry with exercise, then an evening of being angry with myself. Not that I was actually angry with anyone. Well, okay, so I WAS angry with exercise, and we weren't speaking, but I wasn't truly angry with myself. I just had a long talk with myself (through D btw, the poor guy had to listen to me rant about all this at work) about what's important and reminded myself of the whole reason for setting reasonable goals for one's self as opposed to goals one cannot control. This is exactly why I do not set goals to lose X amount of pounds in a week! Instead of being ecstatic that I had a loss, I was actually bummed out that it was not a bigger loss! Talk about having screwed up priorities! Well, I'm over it, lesson LEARNED. Today on the WW boards I was reading posts asking if people wanted to sign up for challenges for January, and one is about committing to a certain amount of exercise for the month, the other is to pledge to try and lose X lbs for the month, and I was thinking I would join both, but then I told myself that it does not work for me to start concentrating on numbers of lbs. Yes, I set a loss goal when I was part of the PC challenge, but the PC challenge went on for months, and I set a reasonable goal for that time and met it halfway through. I am not going to start setting monthly goals, I do not want to start getting obsessive over the scale. I believe I will join the activity challenge tho, I am just still trying to decide on how many minutes to pledge. I knew long before I started WW that I have to be careful about my obsessive personality, and that if I let myself go unchecked I could be an eating disorder waitng to happen. I have kept a completely healthy perspective throughout my journey to this point, I can control whether I continue in that vein, and I absolutely choose to remain healthy-minded and to not start turning this into a numbers game. If anything, my only goal overall is not to gain weight, and even that is on a month to month basis.

It is about being healthy, and I am doing a great job so far.

The day before yesterday I ran half a block to reach the bus, and when I sat down it suddenly hit me that half a year ago I would have been breathing hard from just that little burst of speed. I know because I'd experienced it. But now it doesn't even make me breathe hard.

I'd just worked four 8-hour shifts in a row, and my feet were only the tiniest bit sore last night. Half a year ago they would have been so painful I wouldn't have been able to think of anything else.

THAT'S what it's about, god damn it.

What a wonderful opportunity this was to reaffirm my committment to a healthy lifestyle, and to remember what exactly it is that I am dedicated to doing here!

Bring it.

I'm ready.

Earned 22 APs today: 15 min low-intensity DDR, 75 min mod-indensity DDR, 95 min brisk walking, 60 min free weights, 20 min stairs (8x)

Weekly summary:
Earned 45 APs
9.3 hours (560 min) total activity
12 miles (19.3 kms) walked
11 FPs remaining
1 lb lost