It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was experiencing...so many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Friday, May 9, 2008

Friday

2 days till Nightwish!!!
-OP: yes
-activity: technically yes

I was emotional in the morning and had a hard time getting going. I needed time to myself to think about things (mostly the co-worker being let go) and to get to a place where I was okay. I listened to music and cried quite a bit and then I felt better and was able to get up and get going. I ended up missing out on my workout because of it, but I think the me-time was necessary because I needed to address how I was feeling...it's important to me to be in as good a mood as possible when M is here! I spent the day getting the flat sorted out, but I still managed to get in some "relaxation time" last minute in the evening. ;)

When I went out on Wednesday I hit the Walmart on F's recommendation to see about new jeans. I've never shopped there for clothes before and it was almost surreal for me. I was a little lost about what kind/size to buy, but I selected some to take to the changing room. I figured I should be trying on 16s, but when I held them up they looked too big, so I took some 14s and even a 12 in with me instead. I was not very hopeful about any of it, but the 16s really did look too big, so I figured what the heck, the worst that could happen would be I'd spend longer trying on clothes. I had a moment of annoyance bordering on anger when I went into the changing room and saw my reflection in the full-length mirror in there...I was convinced the mirror was wonky, because it made me look entirely too narrow! I know I'm thinner, but their mirror was taking it too far. I was rather indignant that they were putting wonky mirrors in their changing rooms...are they trying to get people to buy more clothes because they will love how they look when they try it on? How dishonest! I went ahead and tried on a pair of the 14s, and when they felt snug when I was hauling them up over my legs I thought "oh yeah here we go", but the next thing I knew they were going up over my backside, and my eyebrows went up and then I was tugging them over my hips and I thought "wait a minute.." and then I was fastening them and doing up the zipper and my jaw dropped. Then I generally had a fit. They looked GOOD! I tried on the others...and they fit too!!! Even the size 12, tho it was a tiny bit snug. I ended up going with the first pair I tried on, thinking they would be awesome for the concert. I basically floated out the door and walked to the thrift store to see if I could find a pair of blue jeans (the other pair are dark) and some pants and shirts for walking and such. I spent quite some time there, got an awesome pair of bluejeans and some clothes for casual wear. I spent quite a bit of money, but it was money I had planned to spend on the slow cooker at work that has been reduced, but since D gave me his old one I was able to spend the money on clothes instead. It's crazy to have options with clothes...and to feel good wearing them!!!

Earned 5 APs today: 100 min housework

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