It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Saturday, November 10, 2007

What's my line?

No post for me last night. Yesterday was an incredibly sucky day, for no reason other than my hormones are having their way with me again. I started out good, but by the time the store opened, I was a wreck, and I had the GM on my case all day because he noticed I was upset and wanted to help, but I wasn't articulating what was wrong because A. I wasn't sure exactly what was, at the time, and B. I didn't feel comfortable telling him anyway. It was extremely sweet of him to be so concerned tho; he even gave me a hug, which I didn't return, I was so out of it. I feel rather terrible about it all today. I hope I didn't hurt his feelings. This whole social anxiety thing I have really fucks up my life sometimes, I hate it so much. I hate feeling so awkward and out of place and nervous. I had fun at break and after shift playing table hockey with D, but I was still so upset most of the day and so moody. I did not exercise. I did not eat a proper supper. I did not read. I did not listen to HP. I did not watch Buffy. I did not post. Thankfully, I also did not go out and get drunk like I wanted to do so badly. Also, I did not eat outside my points, even tho I really wanted to binge on comfort foods. I did have some, but I still stayed within my points, so I'm not kicking myself or anything. These days happen, usually right before my period. They simply have to be endured, I know I do really well almost every other day of the month. I just went to bed at 8:30pm and didn't worry about forcing myself to do anything I didn't feel up to, which was basically everything. I woke up around 1:30am and stayed awake till about 5am, wanting to enjoy the night a bit. I knew otherwise, I would probably wake up around 4am and be up for the day, and I wasn't in the mood for that. I listened to music and felt a little better, but still off today. I didn't have lunch, and I didn't exercise much. I did however go for a river walk. My period should start tomorrow, or maybe the day after I would think, and things will be normal again. Oh, something exciting happened today; FINALLY someone asked me whether I have lost weight! From reading experiences on the WW boards, I knew I would have to lose 40-50 lbs before people started to comment, and I'm right on schedule. My neighbour asked me about it and told me lots of people in da hood have been wondering about it. Instead of being bothered that they're talking about me, I was rather pleased actually. I love that it is something positive to be noticed for, and that people are finally noticing! Three cheers for getting to a point where people can notice me getting smaller!!

Earned 7 APs today: 85 min brisk walking

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