It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Monday, November 12, 2007

Monday, Monday

I had been having some very nice dreams when I had to wake up for work this morning. In particular, I was wearing a very beautiful dress, fancy hair, hot date...and I was SKINNY! At first I wasn't, but I made it happen. Just as I'm making it happen now. I can't wait to find out how I will look as a thin person, it is like the anticipation of all the Christmases I ever experienced as a child all combined into one big squeearific blissfest of excitement. I was on the WW boards for a bit when I was coming down after work, and was in the process of posting congratulations to a woman who had reached her 50lb milestone, when suddenly it hit me like a tonn of bricks when I was thinking how I will be there soon too; when I reach 50, I will be almost halfway to my goal!!! It suddenly blew my mind, thinking how I am almost halfway there, I can't hardly comprehend it! Theoretically, in the same amount of time that has passed since I started (give a little) I could be at goal!!!!!!!! Of course, I know that is too optomistic, and I am not expecting that or even aiming for it really, because I believe it is too unrealistic to expect the same rate of weight loss in the second half of the process as I experienced in the first, but it just put it in perspective for me. It feels like hardly any time at all since I started. Knowing how quickly it has passed, and yet here I am on the verge of being halfway, tells me that as hard as it is to have to wait and be patient, the end is going to come much sooner than I would think it would. When I started, the end eemed forever away, but 4 1/2 months have gone in a blink. Even if it takes twice that more to get to where I want to be, what's two blinks? It is not so far away. It is not in the far away distance. It is getting closer with every single day I work it. It is coming soon, I could even count it in months. I don't know how many, of course, but I honestly believe I will reach goal less than a year from now, so that means months, not years. And the months have been passing so quickly. I have been so focussed and dedicated to reaching my goal. It is paying off, and all I have to do is keep doing what I am doing. It is going to happen, as sure as the sun will rise tomorrow. Oh, the thought of not having to wait till I am asleep and dreaming to have the experience I had this morning...only to have to look in the mirror to see that beautiful skinny girl I dream about being!

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