It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was experiencing...so many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Saturday, February 9, 2008

To save you from your old ways

I think I must be hormonal. Or maybe I'm just hoping I'm hormonal, because it would explain my mood tonight. It wasn't a bad day, just a strange day. I finished the baby blanket for E (on the bus then in the loo at work, God help me...all I needed was 30 more min before I had to leave for work...I guess I should be thankful that I have such a long bus ride). She laughed through the card, which I'd written some things in, and then cried, so I think it was a success. I finished it so last minute that I never got a chance to even look at the finished product. For days I'd been thinking how I didn't want to be finishing it last minute, and look at how it turned out. Turns out I'd forgotten when I was planning how long it would take me to complete it that I'd deviated from the original pattern and made it wider, which of course meant I had to make it longer to compensate. Either way I'm not happy with myself. I didn't get to eat anything before I left for work because I was trying to finish the knitting, so I felt somewhat out of it at work. In light of not eating yet today, I am not going to exercise tonight. I got an email from a friend when I got home that has left me out of sorts, but it's probably better to wait till we're face to face to talk about it. I can't really trust my reactions right now, I really do hope I'm hormonal. I've been having cramps a little bit the past few days, so I guess TOM might be getting ready to stop by, but it doesn't seem like very long since the last time.

Okay I just checked and from the best I can figure TOM showed up around the 16th last month (stupid me forgot to post and say when), so I think it would be too early for me to be showing symptoms yet, so perhaps I'm NOT hormonal after all. For the past few months I seem to be showing more of the hormonal symptoms after TOM leaves instead of before. My cycles are different than they used to be, I suppose I'll need to just record what I notice, and try to learn my new patterns, since what I used to know doesn't seem to apply anymore. But going on what I used to know, I would read myself right now and say I should start toward the end of the week. I shall have to see what comes of that. Oh SO MOODY!

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