Anytime she goes away

I found out from F today that she applied for grad school in another part of the province, which I had been completely unaware of. She mentioned applying to the school as well as the one here in the city, but I wasn't aware that the school was so far away. I would be devestated if she were to move away, I just might have to go with her. We were discussing our plans for her to come home with me this summer to visit. She's been one of my biggest supporters on my weight loss journey, and I think she is just as excited as I am to see my family's reaction to my new body when I surprise them. The days keep slipping away, the next thing I know it will be summertime, and I will look like a new person. That being said, I might have to log a gain for this week, but I know I will get there in the end. I will have to officially WI tomorrow, because I forgot to officially WI before I ate breakfast, and I have such a big meal it won't be accurate. This is important to me because the scale is showing me up a few lbs from my last WI. I knew this would probably happen due to the fact that when I WI'd last week I was completely empty when I'd done so, and had not eaten for over a day. I'd also been sick and skipping meals. I knew when I logged the weight I did that it would probably set me up to show a 'gain' this week, and I debated it, since when I first WI'd I showed a higher weight than I eventually logged (I made a visit to the bathroom not long after I'd initially logged my weight, and it made a big difference to the number and after a lot of debate I went and changed the official number). I wasn't going to, but I decided after much reflection that I want to be honest with myself, and recording my actual weight is part of that, even if doing so means I will have to deal with logging a gain the next week. If I don't like how that feels, then it should deter me from the type of behaviours I was engaging in last week...like not eating and skipping meals. I decided that having to face this will force me to acknowledge the concequences of what I was doing, instead of glossing it over and not really admiting to it. I will log a gain this week if that's what happened, and I will be happy knowing that I made healthy choices this week, and I ate my DPs and met the guidelines, more importantly. The best thing is that I wasn't eating lots of APs like I normally do, but I still avoided drawing on my FPs, overall, which means I've been relying on the veggies, and have been eating less points, which is a great victory this week. That is definitely something to be proud of, and much more noteworthy than having to log a gain tomorrow.

And I met THE most delightful man at work today, I wish I could have taken him home and kept him forever. He had the most incredible stories to tell me, and I could have listened to him for hours. It is beautiful to meet a man who has been married for over 40 years, and who is still madly in love with his wife, and talks at length about how stunning she is and how lucky he is to have her. I could have cried listening to him. Mrs. Alan Riding, I hope you know how lucky you are to have the love of this man, he renews my faith in men in general.