It's Delle!

Someone on the WW boards mentioned they read my blog (news to me, I didn't think anybody stopped by here aside from my best friend!), so I thought I should put a little blurb about me. I made this journal so I can keep track of the things I'm doing and how I'm thinking and feeling as I journey along the road to getting thinner. It's not intended to be written to an audience, it is honestly something I am writing to myself, and I find it so helpful to be able to look back even 4 months ago and see what kinds of things I was many of our experiences in life slip through the cracks, and I want to remember as many of them as I can in relation to my weight loss; the good, the bad, and even the oh so ugly ones!

So many people say they've struggled with their weight for years, but this is not tue for me. I've been overweight from my earliest memories, and morbidly obese all of my adult life, but I was not the type to yo-yo diet, so in that sense I was not struggling. I don't know what my highest weight was because I didn't have a scale to weigh myself when I started getting set to lose weight. In the year before I started WW I started trying to eat less junk food and to get a little activity into my routine. When I started WW I was 288 lbs and wearing a size 22, and I know the year before I was wearing a size 26 (which was tight on me), so I'm guessing I was easily in the low 300 lb-range at my highest weight.

For the first year of my weight loss journey I was incredibly focussed and motivated. I was keeping my weight loss a secret from my family back home in Newfoundland, and my goal was to surprise them on my trip home in July. Needless to say it was quite a shock to a lot of people when I showed up over 100 lbs lighter without any warning!

Right now I am getting back on track after my trip back home. I wasn't following WW for a while due to comp issues, not to mention life issues, and I've gained back some of the weight I had lost. I got away from journalling, but I'm back at it again and am using it to help me get my focus back. I also like using it to keep track of my activity, although I've not had an organised execise regime for a few months now due to an injury. I'm getting back into my activity, however, and I will be updating all my numbers soon.

As I said, I don't write in this blog with an audience in mind, but if anyone had any questions or comments on anything here, please don't hesitate to post!

BTW, the name of my blog came from a comment my supervisor at work made one day when I was in the middle of a full-blown rant about something I had to do that was infuriating me. He interrupted me and said something to the tune of, "Don't worry about it you don't have to do it. And my goodness look at you! Where are you going, everytime I see you, you're smaller! It's crazy, you're the incredible shrinking woman!!" The moment was funny and unexpected and seemed to sum up my life right now, so I came home and re-titled my blog.

Now all I need is a cape...

Friday, October 26, 2007

Friday night

It's very quiet here tonight. I was up at 4:30 this morning, and got home about 12 hours later. Work was okay today, it is always terribly busy on Friday, and I like having 3 1/2 hours before the store opens to work without distraction. D is so much fun to be around that sometimes it hardly seems like work. Then of course we have to start dealing with customers, and everything gets hectic. I can't imagine what things will be like when the Christmas rush starts! I tied to have good chats with the customers today, and while it was hard at times, at least my supervisor noticed I was making an effort to engage them and to work on the areas I'm not so strong in. There was cake for a coworker who is leaving us, but I managed to avoid the gathering by having to stay on the floor, and later ignored the cake when I was in the lunch room to get my things at shift end. I've been having to deal with the urge to eat things I want lately, more so than usual. I imagine it is the stress I've been under. I find myself thinking about how I would love to just eat what I want to eat, and to eat a lot of it. But I ignore the thoughts and think about something else. I've also been craving greasy food; when coworkers come in with McDonald's to eat, the smell of it almost drives me to distraction lately, but I ignore that too. It's amazing when I stop to think now just how long it has been since I have eaten greasy, fattening food in liberal amounts. It has actually been months, not just days or weeks. This is not a fad or a trend or a kick, this is how I am living. I am maintaining the same level of committment right now that I had on the first day I started. I had some days this week where I did not get all the requirements of the guidelines in, but I have still not eaten outside my points, and I have 28 of my Flex points left for the week. I have earned 43 APs so far. Most importantly, I have exercised a higher level of discipline the past two weeks during a time when following the plan is now as easy as it normally is for me, on account of being moody and not wanting to eat, or else having cravings to eat lots of food that would blow a whole day's points plus the week's FPs in one sitting, and more! The scale is showing me as up all week, and it looks like I will be showing a gain for my WI tomorrow, and I am disappointed, but it is to be expected. I need to buckle down and remember as I am possibly entering a new phase of my weight loss that I am in this for the long haul, and that no matter what the scale is doing, that I maintain my level of discipline. Losing weight is easy in the beginning, and I've tried to remember that surely as the sun will rise tomorrow, that it will get a lot harder, and that every pound will be a struggle. Keeping motivated when the pounds are falling off is not much of a trick; staying motivated when the going gets rough is the real test. I am determined to do this!

Earned 5 APs today: 60 min free weights

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